As I look back on September, I feel like I lived lifetimes in a single month. It was a month of thresholds, external and internal, sacred and mundane, personal and collective. And through it all, I walked with the Mystery, committed to remembering, embodying, and trusting the path of the Divine Feminine, even (and especially) when the road was uncomfortable. Below are moments of personal reflection — I hope
Remembering My North Star
As I share vulnerably, it feels resonant to share my personal intentions—the ones I’ve never shared publicly. My personal North Star.
To remember, reclaim, embody, and transmit soul purpose—within myself and in the world.
To walk the path of Mystery not only to deepen my own spiritual knowing, but also to illuminate a pathway for others.
To understand, honor, and bridge ancient wisdom into modern times.
To awaken the feminine leadership within me. The one who leads with compassion, power, pleasure, and truth. To be a part of amplifying our collective remembrance and rising.
To recognize the sacred in all things, to move through life with reverence, and to be in service and embodiment of the Divine Feminine.
The Work: Creation & Chaos
September was event-heavy, with travel and content creation. While at a national conference in Salt Lake City, the booth design and experience my team created sparked more interest than anticipated—so much so that it felt surreal and weird. Honestly, it felt too much. I’m still unpacking why visibility can feel so unsettling for me even when it’s deserved/earned.
Two weeks later, I moderated a panel at a women’s luncheon. Despite last-minute changes and delayed flights, and an unsettled nervous system, I stepped into the moment. I was stretched, and I grew. The panel was incredible, and I feel the ripple effect of the room to be far and wide.
Mothering Through the Storm
My sweet son faced a painful school conflict. A peer had been bullying him, and after repeated warnings, he defended himself physically, which resulted in a day of separation. We don’t condone violence, but we do understand emotional capacity, especially in neurodivergent children. Preston’s remorse was deep and raw. I spent time with him in reflection, Reiki for energy clearing, and in identifying his personal values, which led our family to re-evaluate our own.
As a family, we identified our personal values:
- Preston: Love, Joy, Learn
- Mark: Accountability, Integrity, Authenticity
- Bonnie: Compassion, Trust, Play
I am continuously in awe of Preston’s awareness. He’s maturing before our eyes and questioning the world through a lens that feels deeply ancestral. His wisdom was felt in his inquiries. Spirit is very much alive in him.
Nervous System & Soul Tending
My nervous system took a hit this month. I relied on many of my tools and practices: 7 Days of Grace, light baths/sound healing, time in nature, and ritual. And even still, there were moments of fatigue and unsettled energy. I am actively planning for more spaciousness in 2026. Spring and Fall won’t look like this again.
Power of Play
I’ve recently been working with Lalita—the Red Goddess. Her teaching that playfulness is a spiritual power has been a joyful anchor. Laughter, levity, and not taking myself so seriously have been soul-saving.
Edge of Visibility
My deepest resistance? Visibility. Sharing my voice in ways I can’t control or curate. I prefer the safety of creation behind closed doors. And yet, I keep being called forward in meaningful ways. I am trusting and surrendering to the way I’m being guided, and I remind myself that authenticity doesn’t live in the safety of bullet points — it lives inside me.
Embodiment in Real Life
I’m navigating real-life shifts — parenting, relationships, presence, boundaries.
And with that, I’m realizing that I’m no longer willing to leak energy. I’m consciously choosing who and what I pour into. And I’m reclaiming the rhythm of giving and receiving.
Final Reflections
This was a month of rich initiations, heart-openings, and tender reckonings. I laughed. I cried. I asked for help. I felt fear and still said yes.
I am in awe of what unfolded.
To those on this path with me—thank you for being in the Mystery, for walking through the discomfort, and for remembering alongside me.
May we continue to weave our sacred wisdom and purpose into this world, one breath, one choice, one act of love at a time.
With cosmic love,
Bonnie